With much dedication and determination, I have been working out and eating relatively clean since March 12, 2011. I have lost 47.8 pounds.
I am backsliding for the past week and admitting it publically.
I ate pizza, I made chocolate waffles (albeit, only mixed with applesauce instead of with eggs and oils), I drank too much, I ate this crap way too much.
I feel like I am out of control again. I really wonder why?
How can I work so so so diligently and then not care?
I do care obviously since I am weighing every day.
I have still kept up with my exercise program. I get up at 5:15 every work day and do cardio 5x per week and strength 3x per week.
Eating, well, no.
I know I am looking much better physically.
I know I feel better.
I know others notice.
Do I want to not be noticed?
Am I more comfortable not being noticed?
Am I ambushing myself?
inside st john's
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