This is how I feel

Its been a long time away from blog land and I am not even sure I care to venture back. 


I used to enjoy writing, although it took time away from the really important things like snuggling with my hubs, chatting with my daughter, petting my dog and cat; real time life.


Blog time became the priority of my day.  I looked foreword to everyone's comments; approval meant so much~instant gratification. 


I would continually click over, just to see if someone had visited my blog, read and most importantly, commented.  ( I have noticed I have lost followers; interesting)


I became immersed in other's bloggers daily routines and lives.  I knew more about blog land people than some who are in my family. 


I felt driven to participate in the cool weekly games of other blogs.  I felt guilty if I was too "lazy" or time restricted to do my "post it note Tuesday" or such. 


I felt frustrated if I was a watcher of a new blog and that person did not become a watcher of mine.


I closely monitored how many followers my fellow bloggers had, and if my numbers had moved.


I refuse to become emotionally entangled again in blog land, but I do continue to check in on some of my favorite blogs from time to time.


I do not want to "need" the approval of readers to feel valid. Valid may not be the correct word, but I know what I mean, and that is what matters.  \


I want those in my life to have my attention. 


They do now.